So, as crazy as it seems I have not posted since Zoe was 2 1/2 years old!!! EEEK! It's definitely been a busy year and a half, and things have definitely changed around our home. Zoe is turning 4 this week..... 4 years old! My sweet little baby girl will be a big four year old. In the past year and a half here are some things that have rocked our world, and made our world!
First, let me just start out with saying how blessed I still feel to be Zoe's mommy. About 2 or more years ago we started trying to have another baby and for Zoe to have a sibling. Things just weren't working out, and time was flying by with a bunch of negative pregnancy tests and expensive doctor visits. Last summer we found out that we were pregnant, and thought this was the end of the "trying journey" and stress. Without going into much detail, we sadly mourned the loss of our pregnancy and baby at the 10 week pregnancy mark. It's one of those moments that you can't plan for, and you can't plan your emotions or triggers that follow. But, you just deal and choose to move on to whatever you can to help you cope. I honestly wanted to just stop trying for a while and be done because I was upset, mad, sad, frustrated, etc. One of the moments that I feel like I need to write down is the weekend we had to make the decision to "start the labor process" to finish the miscarriage. (This in itself was awful!) Anyway, we did this the last day of July 4th weekend, after a church event and I stayed home and cried and laid in bed waiting for the medicine to work and put me into labor. After most of the pain and hard stuff was over, I laid on the couch and Zoe had come back home. We laid there on the couch and she overwhelmed me with the sweetest, most loving cuddles. I remember her snuggling to my face, telling me she loved me, and just being plain sweet and loving. It's moments like these that I know God shows us love in special ways. I needed that so much and I even took a picture of us that day to remember that reminder of true LOVE from Him and of course from my precious daughter! So, the weeks after this were rough, but later we began to come around and think about the process some more.
Fast forward to October 2015. So we hadn't really thought about taking the tests anymore, doing the ovulation treatments, etc. And one day I just thought I should take a pregnancy test to see since I had forgotten when I was supposed to start. ( Like I said, I had quit counting the days and tracking this...) Anyway, the test showed faint pink lines.... and I was really shocked. I told Chris, but he wasn't buying it much. lol. I didn't really either, but I took another one and then called and made a doctors appointment for blood work. The blood work said I was positive for the pregnancy hormone, but after a train wreck of events and ER visits and family emergencies, I wasn't quite sure this pregnancy would last either. ( I were confirmed to be 6-7 weeks pregnant when we went to the ER to find that I had a large cyst on my ovaries, and at first they thought it was another miscarriage... so needless to say we weren't really feeling super certain about this.) Nonetheless, by the end of the visit the ER doctor said it was ok, and the cyst would hopefully not mess with the pregnancy. So,here we are.... in March 2016 with a big belly and a kicking baby girl! And I am just now able to process that we are pregnant! Geez... it really is crazy being a woman and a mama! :) So we are here, 27 weeks pregnant, and excited to have a baby girl in June 2016!
So... that's somewhat caught us up on the wild ride since the last post and our journey! I definitely want to remember these things because I want to remember that God is a good Father and everything doesn't always pan out how we think.... but it works out for His plan and purposes. I will let my next post share all about sweet baby things and Zoe things!
"For I know the plans I have for you... plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jer 29:11
